I have always loved Valentine’s day, but sure love it even more now that I have 3 Valentine’s of my own! These two really love each other, even if he loves a little too hard sometimes. I love a holiday where you can eat all the chocolate you want and celebrate love. Happy Valentine’s Day! I hope you’re spending it with those you love most.
I haven’t blogged in ages. And for a while I didn’t even miss it. Life got so hard and stressful (I’ll get into this later…) that I just shut everything off. I went off everything social media related because I couldn’t deal with it or be distracted by it. I was doing too much comparing, too much feeling negative, and too much wishing I were someone else. Now that things have settled down I started to miss it. Everyone and their dog has a blog now, I swear. And I think it’s great! There is always room for everyone to share their story. I have nothing to prove. I’m not worried about followers and likes. Although I love both of those things, my perspective has just changed now. I tend to be more of a private person, but there are lots of things I want to share that may help others. Like our experience with infertility and IVF, my own struggles with body dysmorphia and eating issues, and OCD that used to drastically affect my everyday life. Plus I want to share lots of photos of my beautiful babies! Maybe even Leni’s birth story? So here’s to actually continuing on this blog I started years ago. I hope you enjoy. 
jeans: j brand// jacket: free people (similar)// boots: stuart weitzman// watch: jord watch c/o// photos: angela young
I’m so in love with these shots my friend snapped of Beau and me. These will be some of my most cherished photos of us. I love this time of year when I can pull out my boots and my sweaters, but mostly I love a bundled up baby sooo much. Part of my fall accessories is my new watch that the people over at JORD watches sent me made out of beautiful wood. It’s gorgeous and it goes with everything. Click here to enter to win a $75 gift card towards your own watch. Everyone who enters receives a $20 gift card! Happy Fall friends.
this post was sponsored by JORD Wood Watches
jacket: free people// dress: mindy mae’s market c/0// boots: steve madden (old)//
Just took a week off of the blog and it felt nice to kind of stay off the internet for a while. We’ve been trying to stay busy around here with lots of working and lots of chasing Beau around. I still can’t believe every day how big my boy is. We have been ready for another one to come along for a really long time, but it’s unfortunately just not on our time table. It kills us both to have to wait for something we long for more than anything. It’s like a little part of me dies each month. But we are doing our best to stay positive and know that things will work out as they should! It just gives us more time to love on our boy while he is our only one! Here’s to making it a very happy week, because also it’s fall!! And I LOVE the fall.
This boy learns more new words every day. I am always amazed at the things he knows that I did not teach him. When we walked through Costco last week he kept pointing and saying “Clorox”. Sure enough it was Clorox toilet cleaner he was pointing at, so I just stared at him in awe. He listens to every word Blake and I say which is super smart but also kinda worrisome. I tend to say, gosh dang it, when I’m frustrated so of course he picked that right up and won’t stop saying it. I sound like a really good mom in public when other mothers hear him repeating it over and over. He’s not as keen to repeat all the wonderful things that I say, naturally. But he is as sweet as they come. All of my joy is wrapped up in him and his dad. I’m the luckiest girl there is.
I didn’t blog at all last week. I just wasn’t feeling up to it because I have been such a downer lately. I don’t like to come on here and complain about life, but sometimes it’s a good outlet for me. Plus I don’t think too many people actually read this so it’s more just for myself. I had myself a good pity party for basically the entire weekend. Feeling hopeful for things you dream of only to have them all fall apart in front of your eyes so quickly. My husband picks me back up from the heartache even though he is just as heartbroken as me. He still finds a way to comfort me when he’s feeling the same pain. After it all settled in we put our lives back in perspective and had hope, that what we want most will come when it’s supposed to. Until then I have my two loves who help me go on when I feel like I can’t.
Monday came really fast this weekend. We were really enjoying time at home to do nothing but relax and watch the Olympics. Now it’s time for another busy week again. I looked at the calendar the other day and realized that my baby boy was 26 months old. He is so big and smart and saying sentences. It’s crazy that I pretty much always know what he’s saying and what he wants. It makes life easier but it’s kinda sad too because he’s growing out of the baby stage. Although to me he still seems like a baby and I’m sure will feel that way until we have another one. Stay this way just a little while longer my boy.
overalls: madewell// shoes: vince (sold out similar here)// hat: j.crew (similar)
These pictures give you a pretty good idea of how Beau reacts when you tell him no. Honestly most of the time he is such a good sweet boy, but his tantrums are no joke. Our month of July has been so busy to the point where we can’t handle it anymore. We just want to stay home and do nothing! So this next weekend that is exactly what we are doing and I already can’t wait. Until then we will be watching a lot of olympics. I LOVE the Olympics! We have also been watching a new netflix show called Stranger Things, which kind of scares me. And I just started The Vampire Diaries which I am now obsessed with. Blake definitely won’t watch that 😉
These are just a few of the shots of my best friend Annie’s wedding day. She was the most beautiful bride I’d ever seen, literally. Annie and her fiancé Damon had been engaged for a year so they had been waiting for this day forever. But really Annie and I have been talking about it for like 20 years. I did get some shots of the two of them together that I’ll have to share in another post. They are a gorgeous couple. They got married in Santa Barbara outside where it was beautiful and dreamy and everything anyone could hope for. I’m so happy I got to be a part of their special day! I love her so much. Happy wedding day beautiful bride!
I’m bummed that these photos are so fuzzy, but we were camping and I didn’t even realize they turned out this bad. At least I tried right? We usually go camping for one night, once a year with friends since we aren’t really the “campiest” family. But we always enjoy our overnighter with good friends. Plus Beau really loved getting dirty and throwing rocks. He even slept in the tent pretty great, which we were a little nervous about. But we all survived and even had a really fun time! I mean, I’m happy to be back in my own bed, but it was fun while it lasted.
We are off to California for a little family vacation and my best friend’s wedding on Sunday. We are so ready for a getaway, I can’t even explain how much we need a vacation right now! I’m super excited to take Beau to Disneyland! He loves Mickey Mouse and Cars so hopefully he loves them in person as much as he does on tv. Be back next week!