jacket: free people// dress: mindy mae’s market c/0// boots: steve madden (old)//
Just took a week off of the blog and it felt nice to kind of stay off the internet for a while. We’ve been trying to stay busy around here with lots of working and lots of chasing Beau around. I still can’t believe every day how big my boy is. We have been ready for another one to come along for a really long time, but it’s unfortunately just not on our time table. It kills us both to have to wait for something we long for more than anything. It’s like a little part of me dies each month. But we are doing our best to stay positive and know that things will work out as they should! It just gives us more time to love on our boy while he is our only one! Here’s to making it a very happy week, because also it’s fall!! And I LOVE the fall.
I didn’t blog at all last week. I just wasn’t feeling up to it because I have been such a downer lately. I don’t like to come on here and complain about life, but sometimes it’s a good outlet for me. Plus I don’t think too many people actually read this so it’s more just for myself. I had myself a good pity party for basically the entire weekend. Feeling hopeful for things you dream of only to have them all fall apart in front of your eyes so quickly. My husband picks me back up from the heartache even though he is just as heartbroken as me. He still finds a way to comfort me when he’s feeling the same pain. After it all settled in we put our lives back in perspective and had hope, that what we want most will come when it’s supposed to. Until then I have my two loves who help me go on when I feel like I can’t.
My baby looks so big in this photo, but also still like an infant. It makes me happy and sad all at once because time gets away from you when you’re chasing a toddler. Life has been crummy lately. Lots of things that just haven’t gone our way, and it’s hard. No one tells you that it can feel this hard. No one’s dying here, I mean we are fine, really. But still a little heartbroken over a few things. I think it’s ok sometimes to blog about crappy things instead of just happy sunny things, because that’s how life happens. We have so many happy sunny days that we are grateful for too. I’m mostly grateful for a husband that gives me butterflies every day, and a baby who gives me a run for my money, and also soooo much joy. Gosh, I love them. The crappy things will pass eventually, but until then I’ll just watch this boy grow in his sleep.